ok or not...

Well Im still bored and I think Dave's out so Im going to go ahead and keep typing... I got random words floating somewhere in my head and I dont know where they are coming from..Well maybe I do...Mayeb Im just drunk?? But I dont want to admit it... I feel like I have to keep this secret.. And I dont want to.. I hate keeping secrets about myself.. Im normally pretty open about everything that goes on with me...And I hate not being true to myself.. Im not going to spill the beans on this one however because it would seriously compromise myself in a lot of ways and that is no bueno... -Live the life..And dont forget where you came fromI walk alone in the shadowsof a blissful unionWaking each day Discovering all that was wrongwith myselfonly to be merely coincidental to the factthat I am alone in my thoughts.Each new passing of a dawnbrings me closer to realizing new truthsabout myselfand those I love.I have grown accustomed to the dark.I dont wish to say that I am not happy.Far from that actuallybut not decisively.Creeping in the shadowsI live the life.My life.And hope that when the sun rises it will be enoughfor me to know that soon it will be nite again.Aquainted with lonelinessI thought that was my weakness..But I see new flaw with each rotation of the Earth.Sweat soaked dreams lull me intoa false realitywhere life is not fickleand I am in harmony with my emotion.Day light scorches my eyes and Ibelieve that I am only sustained through the silenceof driving down that endless stretch of roadalone in my carevery nite just to placatethe feelings of resentment.Turn the music up and just drive.I only wish I never had a destination.Arriving each time a little lessof what I want to beand a little more of who I think I should be.Turning down the mirror in my rearviewso i can get stuckin the random glimpses of myself trying to catch meoff gaurdunpreparedfor what might be there.My eyes look darkerin the nightBut I know they are still the same coloras every day before the last.I chain smoke life.Feel the burning sensationlight my lungsthe amber glow in the rearview.And KNOWthat this is the way I should be.Alone and driving on a continuous searchsmoking in solitudeserene and calmfor once.Pondering how it could be.Getting lost in fantasy of tomorrow.Thus I arrive at my destination.Blinking into wakefullness.And regretting my decision to park.And live the life.. for another day.Mann whered all that come from? I have no idea.. Maybe theres more on my mind than I previouslt thought? Well whatever.. Ill sort it out someday.. Late ^_^